Here we are again that moment of the week to stop and just be thankful for something, even if it seems like there is nothing possible to be thankful for. There is always something!
Silence - I cannot even tell you how thankful I am for the overwhelming silence that all of you gave me in the last two days. I am sure I sound sarcastic but I am being sincere. I hate when things go wrong or not my way, like most of you do, but what I hate even more is when I am forced to talk about it. Although the news from Baltimore wasn't bad, it wasn't good either. I only posted when I got home because there are so many of you who care about Pip and I and want to know what is going on so I owed it to you to fill you in. When I woke up the next morning I was ready for an overabundance of concern and maybe even "I'm sorry" here and there. I'm just not that kind of person. Onward and upwards is what I say! So thank you to all of you who read (and I can't get over how many of you did) and just gave me time to process the fact that I am still a mystery. Thank you.
Thoughtfulness of Others - One of my Beatles buddies, Linda, sent me a book this week by Anne Lamott called Operating Instructions: A Journal of My Son's First Year. I just started the book today and I am only about 40 pages in but let me tell you this book is one of the most authentic books I have ever read. It is funny, comforting, and heart wrenching already because I GET IT! But I think even if you aren't pregnant or do not have any children that it is still accessible. I recommend it. Thank you, Linda. Your thoughtful gift arrived just when I needed it as most things in life do! :)
A Beautiful Wedding - My brother finally tied the knot last weekend and it was a wonderful day with wonderful weather and wonderful family and friends. Everything came together flawlessly and I am so very grateful for that!
That I Was Able to Record Pip's Heartbeat - I am naturally happy that I was able to record the sound of his heartbeat but I want to tell you about a particular instance in which I was grateful for today. I received an email today that I would indeed have to drive back to Baltimore tomorrow (I should be sleeping!) for a 45 minute appointment due to the incompetency of *someone* not me. To say I was annoyed was an understatement. I was on the phone complaining to my mother that I had to drive down there for the second time this week when a text came through. I couldn't hear anything of what my mother was saying because his heartbeat was beating so loud in my ear. I closed my eyes and listened to the sound, as I often do, and I was reminded that in the end all of these drives will be worth it. That this is about something, someone, bigger than a 3 1/2 hour drive or just draining my bank account with gas money and co-pays, this is about a little guy who is counting on me to pull through for him. So I will go to the ends of the earth if I have to for this little baby of mine.
What are you thankful for?
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