Thursday, October 6, 2011

Thankful Thursday!

This past week held a very interesting (and surprising) combination of things that I became overwhelmed by feelings of gratefulness or subtle hints of gratuity that made me feel inclined to  whisper thanks  to the Universe.

Autonomy   - defined as the state of functioning independently, without extraneous influence found in Dorland's Medical Dictionary for Health Consumer.  Not always, but I often like to be alone.  I moved to a strange country on my own and I am really thriving here.  I also became grateful for respect for autonomy that others have.  This (autonomy) is something that I wasn’t aware existed until my Christian Marriage course. Not only did that course enlighten me to a new term but it also let me know it was okay to want to spend time by yourself.  I don’t always want to be alone but I am glad that I can be on my own and not have a nervous breakdown for being on my own.  Sometimes, you really are your own best company. I usually always agree with me and when I don’t I just tell myself to shut it.

Second Chances – For a very long time I was very upset that I wasn’t offered a second chance with a significant other. While  pondering the second chance of two other people, it took me by surprise that I might not have gotten a second chance with him but I did get a second chance at “life” by getting the opportunity to live in Liverpool ( a place I love) and study The Beatles (whom I love the most in the world, besides Jacob). By letting go of my past ever so slowly each day, I am able to embrace this opportunity and take the chance to really be Autumn in a way I couldn’t be when I was longing for the past.  Also, two people In my life are getting a second chance at friendship and I think that is the most brilliant thing I have seen in a long time.  I always thought that they would be the best of friends and it seems as though fate gave them another shot.  I am happy and thankful for them and for myself. 

 Music- Contrary to what I imply, I don’t think there is bad music out there.  There is music I don’t like. However, someone in the world does.  It moves someone and that is all that matters. Whenever I hear a song I feel some emotion.  Whether it is a good or bad feeling  I am always started in a rabbit hole of thought when any song plays.  Anything that stirs up emotions, or makes you think, is quite awesome.  I can’t imagine life without music. At least mine would be empty. So whoever it was that made the first sound of music, I would like to thank you a billion times over. I know I am leaving a huge part of my music out but that part deserves their own section another week. 

Ketchup – Yes. I am thankful for ketchup.  I have the following going against me when it comes to eating:  I am allergic to red meat (for real); I do not like turkey or seafood; I cannot eat chicken if it looks like chicken; if it sounds or looks weird, I will not eat it; I cannot cook. So this basically limits me to microwavable chicken or cooking pasta.  Back home, I often made ketchup sandwiches for a quick snack or I would make noodles with butter and put some ketchup on them. Now that I am living in the UK I have found that ketchup makes many other things better.  Since I always have it in the flat I can always have a ketchup sandwich before class or when I don’t feel like making anything. I would never imagine I would ever be grateful for a condiment but I’ve run in to some bad pasta sauces in the last six weeks and I have become inclined to put some good ole Heinz on my noodles and eat away.  And please don’t roll your eyes in disgust at my eating habits until you have actually tried a ketchup sandwich or noodles and ketchup. BAM.

(Cool) Air – Cliché, I know.  I was feeling a tad under the weather this week and my room was so hot.  I dislike being cold but I really dislike being hot. When I am sick, the dislike of being hot almost turns into a hate for it.  I turned the heat down in my room and it still wasn’t cool enough.  My window had been locked until this week and when I finally opened it there was a Pandora’s Box of spiders waiting to come in so I slammed that right shut as soon as I opened it.  In order to get some air in my room, I propped open my door and the kitchen door and let the wind blow in from the kitchen.  I can’t even being to describe how thankful I was for the cool air to come through. And also how idiotic I felt when I realized it took a heap of spiders to make me feel grateful for it!   Oh… here's to you, Air, for keeping me alive.  


What are you grateful for this week?

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